9:38 pm
almost a year!
Lots has happened this last year. I started a relationship with a guy that was with us in Vegas. We've been seeing each other pretty steady since then - but it's an odd relationship. Sometimes I'm okay with it, and sometimes I want more.
He doesn't want a "girlfriend" so we were more or less seeing each other 2 times a week, but nothing steady. We had an understanding that the relationship was exclusive, but that if either of us wanted to see others, that was okay. He didn't want to know if I was, but I wanted to know if he was. I told him I couldn't have sex with him if he was with other people.
... of course this happened - in August. He had sex with someone and told me. Gah! How ANNOYING. I wasn't ready for it to be over, and was hurt in a way. Why aren't I good enough? Sigh. We've remained friends, and had a few bumps along the way, but it's mostly good.
I'm dying to ask if he's still fucking other women... why I want to know this I'm not sure. Maybe I shouldn't be friends with him, but I'm not ready to give him up yet.
I rejoined PoF though. Need to get my mind off him, and on to others... I've met one guy who seems alright, but not my type. Reminds me of my ex a bit. I need to get out of thinking that I won't find anyone else... STOP THAT THINKING DORKHEAD.
Wonder if that will work...